Our First Time

When our eyes first met…

That intense stare as people pass by us,

The way the room silences to my favorite song,

The day you stopped my world for the first time,

There is only one word that describes that moment,

Beautiful…

Our first words…

The way you sat next to me awkwardly silent,

The conversations around us,

The odd stares of people walking by us,

The day that stopped my worries for the first time,

There is only one word that describes that moment,

Amazing…

Our first embrace…

Goosebumps that ran up my spine,

As your fingertips pressed against my back,

The impulses that I felt throughout my whole body,

The day I felt safe from the world for the first time,

There is only one word the describes that moment,

Home…

Our first kiss…

Our lips touched for the first time,

Pressed against one another,

The world around us disappeared,

The day I felt you for the first time,

Love…

Impulsive Appetite

The distant touch of your breath against mine as left me feeling used,

Burdened with the deep regret for my sinful escapades with you,

Fallen hearts lay along the lines of temptation,

Persuasive words follow lingering lips and fearful embraces,

Watered eyes torn from words that sink into my lavish skin,

Lost communication between bitterness and sweet desire,

Feelings crushed in adventurous wonders,

Fragments of you spill into my purest intentions,

Long nights become cold with frozen tears,

Solid thoughtful misguided yearns for short days of ones hello,

Shattered dreams of future installations created only for the useless,

Walking away you disappear into a shallow silence,

You and that dapper smile.

Consumption

Trapped outside of this glass ball we called life,

Looking into my own indiscretions of my heavy mind,

Clinching the cold, clear window pane of my life,

Pressing my breath along the numbed cracks of my heart,

Riving my fingertips against the hailing dusk of my thoughts,

Memories tap along the silhouette of my shadows,

The glass starts to fracture abruptly,

Scathing me at every angle, I start to fall into this yawning hole that consumes me,

Anchoring me into this pool of past memories,

Swimming to find a way out of this grey area that I’m weighed in,

Cleansed by the lucid water that flows over my body,

Sinking into the bittersweet alibis of your lies,

Fighting to hold my breath while I am submerged into the chaos of judgment,

Silently straining to feel my heart beat,

Disappearing into this mess we call life,

I let go…

 

Masked

Disregarded smiles,

Fraying at the seams,

Realizing that I am slightly bent,

Betraying myself,

Insincere thoughts follow my obsecurities,

Annoying traits that flaw your thoughts,

Irritating noises that become words,

Over analyzing beauty for amazing,

Wallowing in clouds of inadequacy,

 Assumptions of possible infidelity,

Submissive anger,

Swimming above oceans of imprisonment,

Alone.

 

Velvet Memories

Captivating Smiles,

Raptured Hearts,

New Kisses,

Inclined Breaths,

Slanted Truths,

Significant Pain,

Spaces In between,

Mangled Minds,

Elements of you,

Graces of another,

Forbidden Desires,

Gentle Whispers,

Mended Hearts,

Eagerness,

Torn Pasts,

Bright Futures,

Blurred Days,

Long Hours,

Brief Seconds,

New Tomorrows…

 

 

 

The Tyrant Beneath My Kiss

 

The tyrant that rages inside of me,

 

The kindness that you think is my weakness,

 

The unbeveled smirks that I catch with my eyes,

 

The tattered lies that seep through your ever gazing stare,

 

The nostalgic of the words I love you.

Tempered Switch

Fate for bleeding hearts,

Disappearing into my own insecurities,

Loosing sanity in what’s unraveling,

Feeding the fire of my desired heart,

Embellishing into my weaknesses,

Running from the comfortable,

Engaging into the enemies of one’s soul,

Lingering a tempered mind,

Aching for a brightened touch,

Replenishing my sins with alcohol,

Considering the deepest of regrets,

Hanging on to the lasting moments,

Fearing the lights will go out,

Dropping into the mist of your sweat,

Shadowing the demons that hide inside me,

Aging into your lapsed presence,

Urging you to scream my name….