A Dream of You

Rolling back in time for a minute today. To feel that warm summer breeze on my shoulder and the breathe of fresh air on a Sunday afternoon. The music overcomes me; I feel like I take flight into the future and I see you standing there. Beams of sunlight radiate from your skin as you walk towards me. The essence of your smell moves in the air and through my hair. That look..ever so subtle is on your face and the cloud shades the beams for a brief minute and our eyes lock. Losing myself in this bittersweet moment, speechless, as I feel like time has stopped and the world moving ever so rapindly around us. You touch my arm and bring my body closer for that long awaited embrace and that faded kiss. I start to feel a tingling along the curves of my body and all the fear of the past is let go. Lost in your eyes as you fade away from me and your arm releases from mine and that look is gone; you leave me. The beams diminish and the overcast takes over. Rain starts to fall. I look around wet and jaded. I realize that I was alone in my room as I open my eyes from a dream of you.

**The past left behind and the future is released**

Storming Soul

I lay here in the middle of no where. The trees bellow over me, and the stars shed light along the curves of my body. The rain provides the source for my dried tears, and the thunder rolls of my skin creating goose bumps. The lightening pierces my skin, as the wrinkles that form as I get older crack. My heart is weakened and I start to gasp for air. The beat of my heart starts to slow and I feel nothing except your frequent love and the lost tears of my soul.

Lost Tears

Heated with high emotion right now. It's so beautiful outside, the clouds are moving slowly as I listen to Morgan Page on my fave pandora station. I feel like I am floating on a cloud that is slowly breaking into small pieces and disappearing. A cloud that cannot hold me for as long as I need it to. What do I do with this emotion that I have. Do I let it go freely, or do I fight it, and solve it. How can things be so perfect and then they fall into such chaos. Used to be.... freedom was running.. but not anymore. Freedom lies in my hands and I control the barriers of it. So, what is my end result, what do I want, where do I want to be, and how to I stay if that person keeps pushing. I am standing on a cliff; looking at the drop before me. I want to jump and take that fall to see if my wings will save me. Or will they fail me like so many in the past. The small wonders of life. The breath that I take disappears into a silent scream that is unheard and a tear falls because I am unsure of myself.. not you.

Silent Tongue

Silent thoughts dwell on my mind today. They flow through my body in such a slow dreadful pain. So much to think about. The sky is gorgeous today and the clouds are scattered and fluffy. I am stuck in an office at a desk to ponder the thoughts I had the days before. I feel like my life is closing in on me and a plastic bag is around my head and my breath is getting slower and I feel faint. Anxiety becomes me. I am so happy with life right now and yet still feel this tender pain in life , a hole that I cannot fill. A ever so slight chance of loneliness. A drifter in my own hopes and dreams. Yet, the mere thought of you makes me smile, and I remember that it isn't so bad and that I am just thinking way to much about how life can be and could have be. Being patient is such a hard task.. yet the wait is worth it.. the outcome is beautiful.

Tumbling Thoughts

The ever changing season from Winter to Spring. So many people change like the seasons, thier feelings, the way they move through this crowd called life. The past few months have been a whirlwind for me. Ever changing emotions, opinions, and guided thoughts towards my future. Breathe, I tell myself this every day from the moment I walk out the door. So many tumbling thoughts pillar around in my head. I feel like I am on a ship that is sinking and I am climbing to get to the top so that the pool of water beneath me doesn't touch me and pull me under.

A rush overcomes my body as I get into the car today and drive to work. I sit here at my desk and look out the window that overlooks the city. The sky is so blue and the buildings are so still and sturdy. Every day I see two birds fly back in forth around the tallest building that caps into a steeple. I wonder if they are the same birds I see every day; if they are inlove or just friends? I marvel at what it would be like to live free and love free. No urgency of the traffic we call life to corner you with that never-ending hour glass. The hours fade into days and the days fade into weeks. I just need to escape reality and lay in your arms forever in eternity. To feel the soft touch of your hand on my thigh and to look deep into your eyes and get lost in them for that brief moment that we call a lifetime.

Silent Whispers a Heartfelt Cry

I have been feeling slightly under the weather the last few days. Emotionally wrecked with good and bad things. Stressed with the on goings of life and the past. A sickness that will not just leave me alone even if I begged it or sold my soul. Because in reality that is what it wants my soul, my life, my last breathe. I have had some happy days lately better ones that expected, which is always relieving on this roller coaster we call life. Then there are those small insecurities that overwhelm my body like a spray of hot water that just makes your breathe stop and your eyes widen. The promises and the words given to you in array of a heartfelt cry. Weariness over comes me and hope prevails my inner thoughts of randomness. Scattered memories flow through my eyes on uneven skies as the breeze sweeps across my heart and reminds me that I love you.

Smiling.