Lost Tears

Heated with high emotion right now. It's so beautiful outside, the clouds are moving slowly as I listen to Morgan Page on my fave pandora station. I feel like I am floating on a cloud that is slowly breaking into small pieces and disappearing. A cloud that cannot hold me for as long as I need it to. What do I do with this emotion that I have. Do I let it go freely, or do I fight it, and solve it. How can things be so perfect and then they fall into such chaos. Used to be.... freedom was running.. but not anymore. Freedom lies in my hands and I control the barriers of it. So, what is my end result, what do I want, where do I want to be, and how to I stay if that person keeps pushing. I am standing on a cliff; looking at the drop before me. I want to jump and take that fall to see if my wings will save me. Or will they fail me like so many in the past. The small wonders of life. The breath that I take disappears into a silent scream that is unheard and a tear falls because I am unsure of myself.. not you.