A Job for Now

As the days go by I wonder where my life is going. Is it gonna be a long road before I find that one special person that I can spend my days with ? Or is it going to take me another lifetime to find true contentment. Everyone can smile; but no one knows what is behind that smile.

Who I really am.

I recently started "Beer Tubbing (dancing)" at a local bar on the weekends until I can find a legit job. Everyone that works there thinks that the girls that do that job are "Bar Skanks"...I really hate that. They know nothing about me and what I am about. I am an intelligent woman, humble person, and great mother. I just have no other options at this momment. It's actually not as bad as it seems doing it. I love to dance so that is a plus. It's just tiring considering my condition.

It is definitely not my intention to make this a career; but for now I thank this local bar and the employees for welcoming me. For this is my only means of living at the momment.

A Love Lost

As time slips through my fingers.,

The time that was spent between us,

As the weather turns cold into fall,

It was not so long ago we were one,

I think you..



In this lonely walk along the leaves,

I think of you and our mistakes,

After the rain settles, seems so calm,

Thinking of the massive thunderstorms we caused,

I think of you..



As I lye in bed I think of you,

Your touch and slumber,

The way we intertwined with one another,

Memories are fading, I am stronger,

I think of you..



I love you enough to let you go,

Into the breeze that casts away into the clouds,

Where the sun peeks during the day and the moon shines at night,

I now know that memories are the shadows of a lifetime,



Goodbye my love..

I will always think of you,

As I look into the sky on a sunny day,

I will smile..