Raining Heartaches

I wallow in a cloud above you,

Filling up with silent words that go unspoken,

Bubbled out until I burst,

Raindrops drop all along the lines of your discretion,

Beading along the windshield of my car,

Driving past the familiar woes,

Bleeding words as the music blares,

Fast pitched horns honk,

Skidding across the pavement,

Scared from the past regrets and mistakes,

Shuttering as blinking lights glow around me,

Colors of you flash forward along their faces,

The sky closes in on me and the light begins to flicker,

Breathing …Wordless…Released…

One

I ncredible

L over

O ne

V oluptuous

E xotic

Y ou

O ne

U nique

D ontae’

O ne

N otorious

T ay

A mazing

E' (my) ternity

Questions

Pacing back in forth trying to understand,

Where do I belong in your life,

What is my rating?

Feeling the walls close in on me,

Crushing my hopes and dreams,

What will I do?

Giving everything I have,

The truth has set me free,

There is no more truth to give,

What now?

I have given my heart and soul,

Laid it on the table,

Are you going to pick it up?

Are you going to keep it?

Did you even give me yours….

Mending Hearts

When I look into your eyes I see the lies that you hide behind,

The secrets that you keep so close to your heart,

Tears right through my soul, bleeding for a truth,

Secrets that create lies and walls between us,

How am I supposed to know,

Know when this is real,

Words that are true and faithful,

Honest eyes with no doors to open,

Trust that ever binds us,

Different from the past we left behind,

Growing to a new future,

Building a new beginning from before,

Planting our seeds together,

Living a honest life and forever loving roots,

Becoming one, and moving on,

Closing the door to our sins,

Walking away from the temporary,

Breathing together,

Creating an Us.

Melancholy

Again

Tears, Sorrow

Again

Lust, Passion

Again,

Innocence, Sins

Again

Pain, Hurt

Again

Bleeding, Horror

Again

Sadness, Grief

Again,

Anger, Flesh

Again,

Silence, Alone

Lost Again..

Slain

Silent

Speaks

Drunk

Sober

Ugly

Beautiful

Liar

Honest 

Here

Jaded

Unwanted

Loved

These are all traits we all have,

The ugliness buried within each of our hearts,

Our flaws tangled with our good traits,

Pure innocence with the sins of our mistakes,

Everlasting bitterness ending with a sweet kiss.

Home

I walk around with this broken smile,

My silent touch upon your heart,

Breathing peacefully through the world that I thought I knew,

Temporary friends played with my eyes,

I tricked myself into lust,

And there you were standing when the fog cleared,

With your arms open,

Accepting my faults,

My fear that made me run in the first place,

Guiding me with your smile and your sinful eyes,

Standing there, a glimmer of my own reflection,

As I become one with the shadow of you,

I let go of all the sorrows, and fall into your arms.

Loosing The Past

Slowly falling from this painful pedestal,

A place where you used to hold me high above all the rest,

Where did those feelings go,

Did they just slip away during the night,

How can you just walk away from me,

Tearing apart our pictures like they weren’t meant to be,

How can you slash me with those words,

Taking back those feelings,

I have hit my low,

A place where I have fallen and can’t get up,

A hole in my heart that is filled with regret,

Sorrows that barricade my soul,

Trust locking around my body,

Dragging me through the mud,

Eyes drained of tears,

Sighs of lust come from the closet,

Barrying my head into the moon,

Stars glisten upon my hair,

My body starts to vanish,

My heart beats steady,

Conversations are gone,

Letting you stay,

Kissing the past away,

Leaving it behind for a better tomorrow,

Because...It’s was just the past….

Heart Tricks

Feeling unsure about my life at the moment. Curious on the recent decisions I have recently made in my life. Have I made the right choices? Or have I messed my life up beyond repair. You tell yourself once you have had your heart broken that you will not ever let it be broken again or get hurt. Yet it is like getting drunk and having a having a horrible hangover the next morning. You still do it over and over again. When do you ever know if you have found that person that you want to spend the rest of your life with. Not that I have doubts or anything. I feel it, I feel that I have.. but why am I second guessing everything now. It’s funny how words can cut so deep and yet you cry and you pain over them. Can you really just forget them? Can you release that and let it go.. and trust that it will never happen again. As for now.. I must.. It’s the only way I can move forward and love and be happy.. because without you… is missing you and unhappiness.

(Metaphorically Speaking)

I looked for you across the dance floor,
I didn’t see you, except for the essence of a beautiful woman on you,
Our eyes glanced, and I ran, ran away,

Words were torn across our hearts,
As your cold face looked at me,
Your teeth clinched, and your hands gripped,
A shoulder thrown into bruises,

A heart smashed into the pavement,
Clothes thrown to the ground,
My key to my soul slashed,
Ever fading words of that night lingers,
Pain with in my heart relieved by your kisses,

Leary of the words you speak today,
Silence overwhelms me and thoughts overcome me,
Forgetful past and present future,
Let me let go.. let go of fear and believe again,

Today I step forward with a smile,
Vanishing those memories into clouds,
That will linger, yet fade away in the near future.
For all I will see is happiness and words that are meant to be.

To Feel "Amazing" Is You

It’s amazing to look back at the first time I met you. The first time your eyes met mine for that brief minute.I felt like I literally got lost in them for hours, yet it was only a few brief seconds. The brisk touch of your hand the first time you touched me sent goose bumps down my spine. Your smile could have brought me to my knees, made me feel weak all over. The essence of your body next to mine the first time we laid next to each other was pure ecstasy. When I think about all the blissful moments we have had and how many more we are going to have. It feels like this all started yesterday. I still feelbutterflies every time we kiss. When you hold my hand, the warmth of your touch gives me chills. The embrace of your body against mine makes me feel tingly in places unnoticed to the wondering eye. Just the presence of you in my life is amazing.

Held

Long Nights,

Long Slumbers,

Where time stood still,

Movement impaired and silent,

Hearts warmed and swollen,

Emotions in euphoria,

Sighs at a distance,

Minds in a haze,

Breathing in rhythm,

Arms intertwined,

Hands guided by our desires,

Eyes sinking into a blissful dream,

The whisper of your breath upon my neck,

Held by your strength,

Blanketed by your security,

Fading words of "I Love You" across my body.