Tumbling Thoughts

The ever changing season from Winter to Spring. So many people change like the seasons, thier feelings, the way they move through this crowd called life. The past few months have been a whirlwind for me. Ever changing emotions, opinions, and guided thoughts towards my future. Breathe, I tell myself this every day from the moment I walk out the door. So many tumbling thoughts pillar around in my head. I feel like I am on a ship that is sinking and I am climbing to get to the top so that the pool of water beneath me doesn't touch me and pull me under.

A rush overcomes my body as I get into the car today and drive to work. I sit here at my desk and look out the window that overlooks the city. The sky is so blue and the buildings are so still and sturdy. Every day I see two birds fly back in forth around the tallest building that caps into a steeple. I wonder if they are the same birds I see every day; if they are inlove or just friends? I marvel at what it would be like to live free and love free. No urgency of the traffic we call life to corner you with that never-ending hour glass. The hours fade into days and the days fade into weeks. I just need to escape reality and lay in your arms forever in eternity. To feel the soft touch of your hand on my thigh and to look deep into your eyes and get lost in them for that brief moment that we call a lifetime.