Years Passed...

One day you wake up and look in the mirror and you don’t look the same you did years ago. You wonder where your beauty went? How do people see you as “beautiful” when you don’t feel that way inside? When does your mind and heart settle and except that you are a decade older? Maybe this is a mid-life crisis. You look back at your life and how fast it went. All the hearts that you broke or left behind. You wonder if you made huge mistakes that will leave you alone. Those words that you should have never uttered or spoke. The fights, smiles, tears…You think of all the eyes that you have gotten lost in and the way your heart beats when you miss them. The way your life has turned out and if you are truly happy with it. The tears that tell a story that you cannot put into words because it is too painful. The way you look into your future and imagine how it will be or how it could have been. The wonders of a small mind and a huge heart. You wonder if you really are a good person, or did you overlook some of the small things that left sour tastes in someone’s mouth. Smiling and then laughing at past memories with friends, past lovers, and family. I find myself thinking too much and over analyzing everything. Those imperfections of the human body that you dwell on.

Where did my youth go? Why do I feel this way….