Blimmer

Another day starts and I have a headache from those many glasses of wine I drank last night. I wonder how long this will be; the way I feel inside that I cannot put into words. The laughter I once knew and held so high is gone. I smile, but if my lips could cry they would. I wish I could tell you all the things I want to tell you. How I hide behind that sinful glass of wine that is in my hand for the moment. I can barely look at myself in the mirror. I shutter as I put my hands across my face and I sit here at my desk and think about all the things I would have done different in my life - yet I do not regret anything. How is that possible?

I am so angry with the cards I have been dealt. My hands are tied and I am strapped. I have those moments where I can forget and I am truely happy. But, then it all comes back and I soon remember what my life really is.

How do you tell the ones that you love so much that it's back and this time there is nothing you can do.All I can do is fight, live, love, laugh, and pray.... Smile for me; Because I am smiling behind my glass of wine.