I have done it again. I have caused pain where I should have just took a breath and then relaxed my eyes and let the tears flow in the shower.
I did not. I spoke to soon and I let words flow through me like the wind on a windy day. I wrapped myself up in doubts and the negative smiles that I see in my head. I am loosing myself every day and I don’t know why. I have no idea where I am going. I keep closing my eyes; seeing the same long dark path filled with shattered glass. The trees bellowing over me. I start to run and there is this light that follows me and I just keep running. The glass passes by and cuts me as I run faster I start to fall. The path no longer exists and I am laying in my own filthy mess. Chaos is overcome me and I scream with such hatred and pain. I want to be loved … I want to feel like I have a purpose…. I want to feel like I belong somewhere.. anywhere. I want normal.
I did not. I spoke to soon and I let words flow through me like the wind on a windy day. I wrapped myself up in doubts and the negative smiles that I see in my head. I am loosing myself every day and I don’t know why. I have no idea where I am going. I keep closing my eyes; seeing the same long dark path filled with shattered glass. The trees bellowing over me. I start to run and there is this light that follows me and I just keep running. The glass passes by and cuts me as I run faster I start to fall. The path no longer exists and I am laying in my own filthy mess. Chaos is overcome me and I scream with such hatred and pain. I want to be loved … I want to feel like I have a purpose…. I want to feel like I belong somewhere.. anywhere. I want normal.
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