So alot has changed since I have last written..
Where do I start! First of all the job that I was so nervous about ended up being great! I am still here. So that is good. I also left my husband. Now, we are legally separated. We are friends for the most part; but there are days that we cannot stand each other. That is to be expected though. I think I have been pretty good about being fair and keeping my cool.
We have made good arrangements with the girls. So, in the part of this whole split up it's good.
I mean this has been a year in the making.
I have moved into my own apartment. It is rough and will continue to be rough- I am sure.
But, I love it. I mean it's girls and I! No more nagging and constant fighting. I have control over that now and I can be me!
I do miss some aspects of being married.. but who wouldn't. Derek is a wonderful person and I know one day he will meet the right girl and they will be happy.
I have had the most amazing 2 months of my life. My birthday was incredible! Thank you to the person that made that possible.. you will never know how much that meant / means to me. XOXOXOXO
My main questions is :
DO I deserve to be truly happy? Am I worth it? Or am I gonna mess everything up for myself and crash and burn as I always do?
- B
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